My Horror Story
I have been afraid of a lot of things.
I remember that my greatest fears before was losing you or rather, you losing interest in me. I clung to you for so many reasons. Primarily, because you are really smart the way you are able to eloquently put all of your thoughts into words while all I could do is be drowned by the words swimming in my head. I loved the fact that you were the only one who seemed to understand me. It’s not that I can’t express myself but sometimes I screen my thoughts so much that I oftentimes fall silent.
And so the crying stops once again. I shed a few tears. An improvement. I no longer feel the need to sob and run out of breath. I am tired.
There are times that I miss you so much it hurts. I still cling to that stupid pathetic dream. Maybe I’m just looking at a light from a dead star.. but I can’t seem to look away.